What have i been up to

is my life becoming boring? I seriously don't have anything exciting to tell you about lol...

A few weeks ago I started a new workout program and I did so good the first 2 weeks but then we all got sick and I obviously didn't workout for 4-5 days and that messed up everything :( I seriously need to work on my consistency issues but Ive managed to stay on track with my weight ...I go from 135 to 138 depending on how much I ate the previous day lol but I need to start getting back on track, the holidays are coming and that means food and more food.

Speaking of holidays, omg this year is almost over, i cant believe how fast time is flying by but somehow im kinda excited for xmas, since my dad passed and we moved from colombia to the States xmas always makes me sad and nostalgic but I'm feeling different this year, I even want to start decorating our home and today I started our xmas shopping, my 2 girls are going to be so excited about their gifts.

What else? Mmmm i started meal planning and Saturday was my first day of grocery shopping with a list in hand ...I used to go through every aisle and get whatever I thought I needed to then come home and realize that I forgot almost everything that I said I needed so this time I went by the list and nothing else and omg what a huge different, hubby's wallet was happy :)

When it comes to free time Im still obsessed with nail polishes, I even got all crafty and made a rack and now all my polishes are looking all cute on the wall 

It turned out good and even some of my friends on IG got inspired and made one for them, thanks to the rack now I don't have to worry about Liana trying to eat nail polish lol. And talking about IG I created a new account just for my obsessions, lately it's all about painted nails but knowing me it will change in the future for who knows what lol ... It's @D.Obsessions for those who want to take a look and follow :)

I think that's all for today ...until next time XOXO

My new hobby

I've been a nail biter my whole life, many times I tried to grow them but it always seemed impossible and then I discovered the acrylic nail world, I can't lie, I like them a lot but it can get kinda expensive when you try keeping up with the maintenance plus every time I took the acrylic off my natual nail would be so weak and thin ...I don't know how it happened but a few weeks ago I noticed that my nails weren't as short as they always are, I guess I didn't have time to bite them off for a few days? but my first instinct was to pain them and that's how my new obsession started ...that night I looked for nail polishes and realized I had 3, it's been about 3-4 weeks and I have 33 nail polishes as today and I think the collection is going to keep growing ...I have 3 of the "good/expemsive" ones and the rest are very cheap and to be honest I don't see much of a difference, they chip the same at least for me and My cleaning routine.

I keep looking at pictures and videos for inspiration on Instagram and youtube and I'm not near to be perfect but for a girl that never had long nails and never used to paint them I think I'm doing pretty good ...I always do it at night after the girls and hubby are sleeping, I take my time and I listen to music while I'm on it or watch a movie but for me it's like my getaway time, time for myself, time to relax, hubby says that my obsessions are temporary and that in a few months I'll be like "I don't like painting my nails anymore, I need a new hobby" so let's see what happens, for now all I can say is that I love it and I hope to get better ...here is a few pictures of my nails lately and oh yeah I already had to cut them twice which means they are growing pretty fast :)

My life isn't perfect but I'm thankful for everything I have

it was almost 5am when the cramps woke me up, oh the joys of being a woman ...I was irritated and mad, I had to deal with a headache for almost 4 days and now this? I thought to myself: life sucks, this is not fair but then my husband rolled over, hugged me from behind and rested his face on my back ...I then smiled and reminded myself that life is good and I need to stop complaining.

I couldn't sleep much after that so I kept thinking, lots of random thoughts came, I started thinking about other people's situations and I couldn't help but be thankful for everything I have ...except for the cramps obviously ;).

I don't have a perfect life, not even close to have one but it's a good one or at least that's how I feel ...I mean, I have 2 beautiful and healthy daughters, they sure drive me crazy sometimes or most of the times should I say, Liana needs an on and off button and Valentina is at a difficult age right now, the talking back and rolling eyes have started and I know it only gets worse from here cause I have me as the best (or worst) example but she is a good girl after all and does very good in school ...i get to be at home with them, I don't have to worry about if they are eating, if they are missing me, if they are in good hands because I'm a stay at home mom and that's one of my biggest privileges in life ...it wouldn't be possible if it wasn't for my hard working husband, he is a great man and that's another thing I'm thankful for, he is an amazing father to both of OUR girls, he loves and treats them equally and that makes me feel like I finally did something right in life, we as a couple are great, we have our ups and downs for sure, we fight maybe more than we should but we are mature enough to say sorry when needed and our love for each other is bigger than our flaws so we just let it go, smile, hug and kiss and go on with our life ...sometimes I feel like punching him, sometimes I feel like he is a bad husband but then I remind myself that I'm mad because he is still in bed watching tv or because he had the guts to sleep until 10am while I was up and running around since 7...at least he is not outside cheating on me like many men do, at least he is not disrespecting me or treating me in a bad way, at least he is not calling me names in front of the kids indeed he is the most corny and romantic guy ever plus I know he works a lot during the week, I do too in the house but I get to take naps, I get to sit on my couch and drink some coffee, I get to say "bring food cause I don't feel like cooking" so when I remind myself of all those things I'm like wait a minute, I don't have a bad husband, I have a great one, I'm a lucky girl for having him in my life and all my anger goes away ...I know some people feel like I pretend to have the perfect life and the perfect relationship and I don't, I just choose to show only the good things about me and my life, that doesn't make me an hypocrite but why should I go on Instagram or a blog talking about my husband taking a nap? it doesn't make sense for me ...I used to be like that with my past relationships and I learned that's not cute for sure.

that last part reminded me that I'm thankful for one last thing, my new friends, in the process of getting my life together and getting a family of my own I lost almost all my friends, I felt alone sometimes, I didn't have anybody to talk except my husband but then I met a bunch of ladies through the Internet while I was pregnant and I'm glad to say that I became friends with a few of them but there's one that has a special place in my heart, she lives on the other side of the country but that's not an impediment, we text a lot, we laugh and cry, we've become each other's confidante and instead of talking about my husband or my life on IG I just text her and I already got in trouble for that so it's not a secret to my husband (oops sorry babe lol)..she is a mom, a wife, a crazy girl just like me and she understands me, she gives me advice but tells me to get my shit together when I need to as well, I just feel free to vent to her because she's been in similar positions in life and she doesn't judge me ...I don't feel so alone anymore, I feel like a gained a good friend and I'm thankful for that as well.

long post isn't it? sorry, I got carried away ...I know life is not the same for everybody, I know there's people going through so much right now and because of those people is that I felt inspired to write this and  I hope that the people that are just like me and tend to get frustrated for such small things keep in mind that our struggles are minimal compared to others so be thankful and smile :) 

Happy First Birthday my adorable Baby

so as I sit here and try to find the right way to start today's entry I can't help but cry, she is here, peacefully sleeping next to me and I can't believe that she is one year old ...I officially have a toddle but she will always be my baby.

a year ago today, on sept 28/2013 I pushed a 7.12 pounds and 18 inches long baby, not a single cry to the point I was freaking out and asking my midwife if everything was ok ...she was on my chest, her big eyes wide open looking straight to my face, looking into my eyes, i looked at my husband, his eyes full of tears and shock and that's when it hit me: my life was complete, I was the happiest woman on earth. 

it's been a year full emotions, a year full of love but full of struggles as well but I wouldn't change a single thing ...Liana Isabella is such an amazing girl full of energy, even when she was in the womb the nurses and drs kept telling us what an active baby she was just by the ultrasounds but God, little did I know ...sometimes the word active is small compared to what Liana is, she sat unassisted by 4 months and by 6 months she was already crawling and pulling herself up with the help of the table or the crib and to my surprise she took her first steps at the age of 9 months, she is a little dare devil, it's like she is not afraid of getting hurt again and again and again ...I feel like people think that I'm a bad mom just by looking at the bruises on her face but I swear I always try my best, sometimes it's just too hard to keep up ...I don't remember the last time I went to pee without having to be screaming "Liana come here, what are you doing?, I swear I'm about to lose my mind" but even when it's hard it's amazing at the same time, she is healthy enough to be that active and that's what matters.

she is very funny and smart, even when she doesn't talk much she still finds ways to communicate with me, she is a daddy's girl but the bond she has with mommy is just inexplicable and she loves her big sister Valentina very much but sometimes she is such a bully that I get scared that vale is going to start hating her lol ...my little baby, not so little anymore ...I could go on and on about all the things that she does but I feel like I already got lost in my thoughts. this is not the type of blog I was planing to go for but oh well.

there's not a  day that goes by without me praying and asking for the opportunity to watch her as she grows and discovers the world around her and I hope that as she does that she realizes that her momma will always be by her side, always there for her ..Happy first Birthday to my beautiful Baby, I can't wait to see what this year brings for you and us

I couldn't be more excited!!!!! Weight loss update

It's been a month and I'm back with exciting updates but before I start I want to make something clear ...**if you are reading this is mostly because you follow me on Instagram which means you already know the type of pictures I post, you may have noticed that lately there's more and more pictures of me, some of you may think that I'm "gassing" myself up and I'm totally fine with it, I really don't care what people think about me, I'm just proud of myself and my progress but if you are one of those who doesn't like my pictures or feel offended or whatever type of way by them do yourself a favor and unfollow me, I'm saying this because I already had to block a few people who couldn't handle my "yayyy me" pictures ...Im too old for that type of immaturity**.

Ok so back to the exciting part, as some or all of you know I started my weight loss journey back in May and I've been sharing my results in my blog as a way to keep me accountable (trust me Im not just trying to show off when i post a picture).  Not sure if you remember but i started at 154.8 pounds, i mainly changed my eating habits, I tried exercising but I have to admit that's not for me but you can read more about that in my previous posts.

Today's entry is mostly to show my progress pictures, my weight goal is 130 pounds and I can't believe how close I am, here's a comparison from the day I started, last post which was a month ago and today:

And here is another comparison just between last month and today, I'm really happy to see the changes in my body:

And just as a little extra I want to share this picture just because my clothes are fitting better now, I'm even wearing things that I wasn't able to wear 6 months ago and well, that feel fantastic:

Back in March I had to leave the part on the sides unbuttoned because it just didn't fit and I can even see a difference in my arms and face :) 

I finally reached my pre-pregnancy weight today and I'm just 5 pounds away from reaching my goal ...until next time xoxo

Weight loss update

On May 25th of this year I realized that I didn't like what I was seeing in the mirror and those numbers on the scale were just depressing, my life as a stay at home mom and wife is very busy, there's people that think otherwise and feel that just because I'm at home I have it easy and all I do is watch tv  but that's another story (maybe I need to blog about it) ..in reality I don't have time to workout every day  so my only option to start losing weight was to watch what I was eating and see if that  was going to help ...it's been almost 3 months and I've lost 12.6 pounds in total just by eating better, I'm not going to lie, I'm not the salad and smoothie type of person, I need my rice and my beans lol  but I stopped drinking sodas and juices, I only drink water, my portions are smaller now compared to how I used to eat and I try to control myself when it comes to candy but oh how much I love me some chocolate but in general I'm eating less. (As some of you know I tried the matefit teatox and I saw some results but I didn't feel like it was worth it so I didn't repurchase)

The progress might not be as fast as I'd like but I tell myself every day that small progress is better than no progress, my clothes are starting to fit much better, 2 days ago I was able to wear my size 4 jeans again without the huge muffin top making its appearance and even my neighbor said that I was looking skinnier so not only am I starting to feel better about the way I look but others are noticing it too and that's an amazing feeling .

I still have 12 more pounds to go and lots of toning to do, I hope that as Liana gets bigger and more independent I'll be able to start working out but for now I'm happy with my progress. As today I'm at 142.2  pounds and for my height that's not too bad (I'm 5'5) but my goal is to be at 130 . Here is the progress pictures so far and I'll be back with more updates along the way :) 

I love my children equally

Since I became pregnant with my second child I've received a few nasty comments about me treating my children in different ways, for example people have blamed me for not having enough baby picture of Valentina and instead having tons of Liana or being too excited with the last pregnancy and too worried with the first one..I never paid much attention to it but now I'm mad, mad to the point where I have the need to make things clear, to really say how I'm feeling.

Liana's bday is coming up in 2 months so last week I started party planning, today I was talking with a family member about it and I again received a comment about how differently I'm dealing with things when it comes to the girls, she was referring to the fact that my older didn't have a birthday party until she was 4, I once again let it go and just told this person that had things to do and hanged up but now I'm here, sitting in the living room and it's finally getting to me: why are some people so ignorant and judgmental?.

Yes, Things are different when it comes to the way I am with Liana now and the way I was with Valentina as a baby but why don't you ask yourself why first instead of just criticizing me? People need to understand than life changes and need to realize that the situation I was in when I had Valentina is so much different than the situation I am right now, for those who doesn't know or for those who keeps forgetting let me remind you: I was a teen mom, I got pregnant at 16, I was scared, confused, I was still in high school, I lived with my mom, I depended on her and to make things worse the father of my child went running and disappeared as soon as I told him I was pregnant (yeah I said in a public blog because that's how it is but that's another story) ...I loved my Valentina since the first moment I heard her heartbeat, her kicks used to scare the crap out of me but she became the love of my life but when she was born I had other things more important to worry about than taking tons of pictures a day or planning a bday party, I couldn't be as excited as I was with Liana's pregnancy because I had to deal with the fact that I was about to become a  mom at 17 but still had to get at least a high school diploma, I was running all day long from going to school to coming back and picking her up from the baby sitter and then trying to do homework while giving her a bottle at the same time ...so for those who think I love Liana more than Valentina let me tell you: YOU ARE FUCKING WRONG, I love both of my children like nothing in this world, I can't even put into words my feelings for them, they are my life, they make me a better person but you need to understand than now I'm in a very very different situation; I now have a husband, a stable life, Liana was planned, I don't have to deal with going to school, I am a stay at home home and my biggest worries right now are "what should I cook?" Or "omg, Luis is almost home and I haven't make the bed because I've been playing with the girls all day long" ...so yeah I now have time to take pictures (tons of them), now I have time and the money to plan a birthday party, but it doesn't mean that I love one more than the other ...in fact the connection I have with Valentina is way bigger than anything, with Liana I have her father's help, Liana knows she has a mom and a dad while Valentina only had me and just me for a long time in her life, I am her world and she loves me very much and that's all I need.

I think is time for me to start cutting people off of our lives, I don't even want to imagine what would happen if my Valentina hears these people saying something like that ...I don't want her to feel bad and suffer because of others' ignorance ...and once again don't ever doubt the love I have for my children, I don't play the "favorite" game in this house, they get treated the same way and with the same love, obviously Liana needs more attention because she is a baby but even Valentina understands that so why can grown ups do the same? 

Vent over ...just needed to make things clear so until next time ;)