My new hobby

I've been a nail biter my whole life, many times I tried to grow them but it always seemed impossible and then I discovered the acrylic nail world, I can't lie, I like them a lot but it can get kinda expensive when you try keeping up with the maintenance plus every time I took the acrylic off my natual nail would be so weak and thin ...I don't know how it happened but a few weeks ago I noticed that my nails weren't as short as they always are, I guess I didn't have time to bite them off for a few days? but my first instinct was to pain them and that's how my new obsession started ...that night I looked for nail polishes and realized I had 3, it's been about 3-4 weeks and I have 33 nail polishes as today and I think the collection is going to keep growing ...I have 3 of the "good/expemsive" ones and the rest are very cheap and to be honest I don't see much of a difference, they chip the same at least for me and My cleaning routine.

I keep looking at pictures and videos for inspiration on Instagram and youtube and I'm not near to be perfect but for a girl that never had long nails and never used to paint them I think I'm doing pretty good ...I always do it at night after the girls and hubby are sleeping, I take my time and I listen to music while I'm on it or watch a movie but for me it's like my getaway time, time for myself, time to relax, hubby says that my obsessions are temporary and that in a few months I'll be like "I don't like painting my nails anymore, I need a new hobby" so let's see what happens, for now all I can say is that I love it and I hope to get better ...here is a few pictures of my nails lately and oh yeah I already had to cut them twice which means they are growing pretty fast :)

My life isn't perfect but I'm thankful for everything I have

it was almost 5am when the cramps woke me up, oh the joys of being a woman ...I was irritated and mad, I had to deal with a headache for almost 4 days and now this? I thought to myself: life sucks, this is not fair but then my husband rolled over, hugged me from behind and rested his face on my back ...I then smiled and reminded myself that life is good and I need to stop complaining.

I couldn't sleep much after that so I kept thinking, lots of random thoughts came, I started thinking about other people's situations and I couldn't help but be thankful for everything I have ...except for the cramps obviously ;).

I don't have a perfect life, not even close to have one but it's a good one or at least that's how I feel ...I mean, I have 2 beautiful and healthy daughters, they sure drive me crazy sometimes or most of the times should I say, Liana needs an on and off button and Valentina is at a difficult age right now, the talking back and rolling eyes have started and I know it only gets worse from here cause I have me as the best (or worst) example but she is a good girl after all and does very good in school ...i get to be at home with them, I don't have to worry about if they are eating, if they are missing me, if they are in good hands because I'm a stay at home mom and that's one of my biggest privileges in life ...it wouldn't be possible if it wasn't for my hard working husband, he is a great man and that's another thing I'm thankful for, he is an amazing father to both of OUR girls, he loves and treats them equally and that makes me feel like I finally did something right in life, we as a couple are great, we have our ups and downs for sure, we fight maybe more than we should but we are mature enough to say sorry when needed and our love for each other is bigger than our flaws so we just let it go, smile, hug and kiss and go on with our life ...sometimes I feel like punching him, sometimes I feel like he is a bad husband but then I remind myself that I'm mad because he is still in bed watching tv or because he had the guts to sleep until 10am while I was up and running around since 7...at least he is not outside cheating on me like many men do, at least he is not disrespecting me or treating me in a bad way, at least he is not calling me names in front of the kids indeed he is the most corny and romantic guy ever plus I know he works a lot during the week, I do too in the house but I get to take naps, I get to sit on my couch and drink some coffee, I get to say "bring food cause I don't feel like cooking" so when I remind myself of all those things I'm like wait a minute, I don't have a bad husband, I have a great one, I'm a lucky girl for having him in my life and all my anger goes away ...I know some people feel like I pretend to have the perfect life and the perfect relationship and I don't, I just choose to show only the good things about me and my life, that doesn't make me an hypocrite but why should I go on Instagram or a blog talking about my husband taking a nap? it doesn't make sense for me ...I used to be like that with my past relationships and I learned that's not cute for sure.

that last part reminded me that I'm thankful for one last thing, my new friends, in the process of getting my life together and getting a family of my own I lost almost all my friends, I felt alone sometimes, I didn't have anybody to talk except my husband but then I met a bunch of ladies through the Internet while I was pregnant and I'm glad to say that I became friends with a few of them but there's one that has a special place in my heart, she lives on the other side of the country but that's not an impediment, we text a lot, we laugh and cry, we've become each other's confidante and instead of talking about my husband or my life on IG I just text her and I already got in trouble for that so it's not a secret to my husband (oops sorry babe lol)..she is a mom, a wife, a crazy girl just like me and she understands me, she gives me advice but tells me to get my shit together when I need to as well, I just feel free to vent to her because she's been in similar positions in life and she doesn't judge me ...I don't feel so alone anymore, I feel like a gained a good friend and I'm thankful for that as well.

long post isn't it? sorry, I got carried away ...I know life is not the same for everybody, I know there's people going through so much right now and because of those people is that I felt inspired to write this and  I hope that the people that are just like me and tend to get frustrated for such small things keep in mind that our struggles are minimal compared to others so be thankful and smile :)