Weight loss update

On May 25th of this year I realized that I didn't like what I was seeing in the mirror and those numbers on the scale were just depressing, my life as a stay at home mom and wife is very busy, there's people that think otherwise and feel that just because I'm at home I have it easy and all I do is watch tv  but that's another story (maybe I need to blog about it) ..in reality I don't have time to workout every day  so my only option to start losing weight was to watch what I was eating and see if that  was going to help ...it's been almost 3 months and I've lost 12.6 pounds in total just by eating better, I'm not going to lie, I'm not the salad and smoothie type of person, I need my rice and my beans lol  but I stopped drinking sodas and juices, I only drink water, my portions are smaller now compared to how I used to eat and I try to control myself when it comes to candy but oh how much I love me some chocolate but in general I'm eating less. (As some of you know I tried the matefit teatox and I saw some results but I didn't feel like it was worth it so I didn't repurchase)

The progress might not be as fast as I'd like but I tell myself every day that small progress is better than no progress, my clothes are starting to fit much better, 2 days ago I was able to wear my size 4 jeans again without the huge muffin top making its appearance and even my neighbor said that I was looking skinnier so not only am I starting to feel better about the way I look but others are noticing it too and that's an amazing feeling .

I still have 12 more pounds to go and lots of toning to do, I hope that as Liana gets bigger and more independent I'll be able to start working out but for now I'm happy with my progress. As today I'm at 142.2  pounds and for my height that's not too bad (I'm 5'5) but my goal is to be at 130 . Here is the progress pictures so far and I'll be back with more updates along the way :) 

I love my children equally

Since I became pregnant with my second child I've received a few nasty comments about me treating my children in different ways, for example people have blamed me for not having enough baby picture of Valentina and instead having tons of Liana or being too excited with the last pregnancy and too worried with the first one..I never paid much attention to it but now I'm mad, mad to the point where I have the need to make things clear, to really say how I'm feeling.

Liana's bday is coming up in 2 months so last week I started party planning, today I was talking with a family member about it and I again received a comment about how differently I'm dealing with things when it comes to the girls, she was referring to the fact that my older didn't have a birthday party until she was 4, I once again let it go and just told this person that had things to do and hanged up but now I'm here, sitting in the living room and it's finally getting to me: why are some people so ignorant and judgmental?.

Yes, Things are different when it comes to the way I am with Liana now and the way I was with Valentina as a baby but why don't you ask yourself why first instead of just criticizing me? People need to understand than life changes and need to realize that the situation I was in when I had Valentina is so much different than the situation I am right now, for those who doesn't know or for those who keeps forgetting let me remind you: I was a teen mom, I got pregnant at 16, I was scared, confused, I was still in high school, I lived with my mom, I depended on her and to make things worse the father of my child went running and disappeared as soon as I told him I was pregnant (yeah I said in a public blog because that's how it is but that's another story) ...I loved my Valentina since the first moment I heard her heartbeat, her kicks used to scare the crap out of me but she became the love of my life but when she was born I had other things more important to worry about than taking tons of pictures a day or planning a bday party, I couldn't be as excited as I was with Liana's pregnancy because I had to deal with the fact that I was about to become a  mom at 17 but still had to get at least a high school diploma, I was running all day long from going to school to coming back and picking her up from the baby sitter and then trying to do homework while giving her a bottle at the same time ...so for those who think I love Liana more than Valentina let me tell you: YOU ARE FUCKING WRONG, I love both of my children like nothing in this world, I can't even put into words my feelings for them, they are my life, they make me a better person but you need to understand than now I'm in a very very different situation; I now have a husband, a stable life, Liana was planned, I don't have to deal with going to school, I am a stay at home home and my biggest worries right now are "what should I cook?" Or "omg, Luis is almost home and I haven't make the bed because I've been playing with the girls all day long" ...so yeah I now have time to take pictures (tons of them), now I have time and the money to plan a birthday party, but it doesn't mean that I love one more than the other ...in fact the connection I have with Valentina is way bigger than anything, with Liana I have her father's help, Liana knows she has a mom and a dad while Valentina only had me and just me for a long time in her life, I am her world and she loves me very much and that's all I need.

I think is time for me to start cutting people off of our lives, I don't even want to imagine what would happen if my Valentina hears these people saying something like that ...I don't want her to feel bad and suffer because of others' ignorance ...and once again don't ever doubt the love I have for my children, I don't play the "favorite" game in this house, they get treated the same way and with the same love, obviously Liana needs more attention because she is a baby but even Valentina understands that so why can grown ups do the same? 

Vent over ...just needed to make things clear so until next time ;)